jeng jeng jeng
grammy's around teh corner people!
huhu
and my favs got a bunch of nods this time
amy winehouse got 6, feist got 4, lily allen got 1, john mayer got 1, bjork got 1
its gonna be a hell of an award show
and its on 10th February
my bday y'all!
huhu
so here are the nods for the top categories, with my choice for who's gonna win - and Rolling Stones', the most opiniated mag of the 21st century..
so here goes...
ALBUM OF THE YEAR
Foo Fighters
Vince Gill
Herbie Hancock
Kanye West (RS)
Amy Winehouse (ME)
RECORD OF THE YEAR
Irreplaceable
The Pretender
Umbrella (RS)
What Goes Around ... Comes Around
Rehab (ME)
BEST NEW ARTIST
Feist (ME - 2nd choice)
Ledisi
Paramore
Taylor Swift
Amy Winehouse (RS and ME)
SONG OF THE YEAR
Before He Cheats
Hey There Delilah
Like a Star
Rehab (ME)
Umbrella (RS)
BEST FEMALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE
Christina Aguilera
Feist (RS ME 2nd)
Fergie,
Nelly Furtado
Amy Winehouse (ME)
BEST MALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE
Michael Bublé
John Mayer (ME)
Paul McCartney
Dance Tonight
Seal,
Justin Timberlake (RS)
BEST SOLO ROCK VOCAL PERFORMANCE
Beck
Paul McCartney
John Mellencamp
Bruce Springsteen,
Lucinda Williams (ME RS)
BEST ROCK ALBUM
Daughtry
Revival (ME)
Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace
Magic
Sky Blue Sky (RS)
BEST ROCK SONG
Come On
Icky Thump (ME RS)
It's Not Over
The Pretender
Radio Nowhere
BEST RAP/SUNG COLLABORATION
I Wanna Love You
Kiss, Kiss
Let It Go
Umbrella (ME RS)
Good Life
BEST RAP SONG
Ayo Technology
Big Things Poppin'
Cant Tell Me Nothing
Crank That (ME RS)
Good Life
BEST RAP ALBUM
Finding Forever
Kingdom Come
Hip Hop Is Dead, (ME)
T.I. Vs. TIP
Graduation (ME)
BEST POP VOCAL ALBUM
Lost Highway
The Reminder (ME 2nd)
It Won't Be Soon Before Long
Memory Almost Full
Back to Black (RS ME)
As you can see, most of my votes went to either winehouse or feist.. well, their really THAT GOOD anyway.
lets just let the professionals decide.
and i tell u.
winehouse's gonna win all 6
huhuh
well, thats about it
be sure to catch it on 10.2 and wish me happy birthday aite
XD
im writing this to X
but ya'll r welcomed to read it
huhuh
well.. emm
mok padah pa owh?
ah!
thanks 4 still being my friend.
i know u're in a relationship rite now, but i juz cant stop this feeling
you you you
that is all im thinking about
hope u dont mind huh
lagikpun that feeling is natural
we cant run away bah from feeling that way..
heh
oh yea..
hope u're fine
lastnite we mesaged
u said u were sakit
sembuh cepat ooo
huhu
guess thats it for now
have to study gk eh
huh
but my mind is 'seeing' a special someone
i miss you greatly
and i need help
hohoh
;)
im in too deep
i just lost myself
i am..
missing someone i shud not miss
loving someone i shud not love
i..
changed
again and again i type that
but still i ont know the reason for this.... 'change'
ive never felt like this b4
and the fact that im typing it shows that it really affected me
i dont want to feel this way
but
i just cant stop this feeling
im
sorry~
time for my story again~
the story of X..
huhuh
well, i ended my last blog with me missing X muchly..
and i stayed that way all day long.. thinking of X..
thinking of me...
what happened to me..
hmmm...
makan X, tido X, study X, tulis X, everything X
its like im obsessed!!
but im not and i'll never stand at that level!
shameful state of mind..
no, im not obsessed.
im just..
well..
missing..
i dont know what im feeling..
waaaahhhh the language..
im turning my inside out~
so i went thru the day missing X...
until I cant bear the feeling.
then i messaged X
'hey.. emm i really need 2 tell u something. but im not sure whether it wud be ag ood idea or not. emm'
but no delivery reports.
X was using DG...
f**k
y shud i feel like this?
;(
so i decided to sleep and wake up at 0030
a time X wud usually have changed to MXS.
so i set my alarm.
but the ship wont set sail to slumberland.
I rolled on my bed
pusing kanan
pusing kiri
lipat2
golong2
huhuh
and then the ship set sail at 2315.
huh
at 0015, i woke up
grabbed my phone
and looked at the screen
'1 New Message From X MxS'
yeay
but
hmmm ;(
still wondering~
so i opened the message, where it read
'hey.. emm i really need 2 tell u something. but im not sure whether it wud be ag ood idea or not. emm <<- so wat is it? sory l8. lmbt tuka hotlink'
i dont care lambat or not, the thing is you replied my msg. and that makes me happy - and wondering.
then I replied something..
wat was it huh? emm
nvm
but the msg was something like 'im not sure. i dont want to ruin our fship' sorta
then X replied.
'wat is it? juz tell me'
of which i replied courageously.
another msg that i dont remember the words, but contained words like 'i... like u', 'gosh cant blv im doin this', and 'sorry'.
then it started
misery hour
X didnt reply my msg
for a long period of time
of which during that time
i kept on sending msgs saying that 'im sorry' and the likes of it.
i sent and i sent until finally X replied
'bleh tauk x the reason u like me?'
yeay!
so i replied the reasons.. not for you to know..
so the hour continued with us messaging about wat i juz told X.
X was again in the late-replying-getting-on-my-nerves mode...
and X's messages was kinda short
then i asked X,
'exactly wat izzit that you feel when i told u that?'
the answer - 'i was shocked'
brief yet easily understood(obviously).
then i apologized to X again.
and requested that the both of us shud message besa2 jak(besa=normal), forgetting wat happened.
X agreed, but asked again,
'since when o? since we'v started smsin each othr ka..?'
i replied
'no, since fs'.. but the message was longer of course, that's just the main point.
then X replied someting about 'wishing to know the reason for the liking'
and from there,
we messaged like besa2...
not talking about what i confessed
altho i really wanted to continue talking about that
but we'll talk about that in the near future..
after some 'besa2' smses,
X said
'tok last msg aku ngan kau.. kdt abis dah tok.. xtawk gk bla eload.'
means that its the last message for the night, as X's maxis punye credit dah x ramai dah
so I, kinda dissapointed, replied back with the usual replies I always gave in return for goodbye messages.
'okay. nites. take care aite =)'
well, sorta..
however, after that
i grew more worried.
not about myself, but about X too.
what if, X lied about the limited credit bcause of what happened before?
what if, X wont message me again?
what if, we're not even friends anymore?
i hope not.
i REALLY hope not.
if i cant be with X,
at least I want us to be best friends.
hmm...
still.. what is it with me? what happened to me? how did I change?
I am yet to find the answer for those recurring questions.
so thats it.
my 'pinkish' blog. ahax
making-me-cringe-blog...
now its time for me to sleep.
and wake up with the spirit of study week. yeahh!
and..
hopefully..
see X's message on my phone the moment I wake up 2morrow.
hopefully
altho
its close to impossible
i''ll still be hoping
waiting
and waiting
not juz for the message
but for X, too. I guess.
hmmm...
ive..
changed? ;(
i hate missing~
it all started from fs...
this someone(from hereon onwards,i'll use X to represent this someone) requested me to be a friend.
Seeing X's face, I.. I, feeling something beyond description(ahah), added X up.. and from then, we are officially 'friends'. I was - happy~
then X sent me a comment(in fs, the comment section is misused as a communication medium, haha), thanking me for adding X up. and upon reading that comment, sumhow i felt... some kind of bliss~
and from there, we started exchanging comments. from all of the comments ive received, X's was the one ive always anticipated. the later the days X replied my comments, the more worried i grew.
I.. changed? No~ please.. i wont want to.. but~ hmm ;(
then one day, X messaged me a phone no. it was X's. huh~ you dont know how excited i was to receive X's number. constantly contacting with X? god~
then, I quickly messaged X my phone number. X's was DG, mine was MXS. my credit was about rm1.20 plus minus.. huhu but i didnt care, as i was extremely joyful to have X's no.
i waited for X's reply.. but none came. I was down again. hours and hours of waiting.. until during my English tutorial, my phone vibrated.
"IS IT X???!!!!"
i took my phone out from my pocket.
heaven came down to earth.
it was X.
X messaged:
"hey it's me. this is my temporary MXS no. huhu. polah pa tek(sarawakian's whatchu doin?)"
well, sorta..
i didnt concentrate at all during that class~
then, suddenly X didnt reply my message. I was down and worried again.
'did i hurt X's feelings?' 'was it my words?'
myriads of question were spinning inside my head~
again, hours and hours of waiting, until at that night, another message came.
it was X's.
:D
then..
;(
hmm..
wat happened to me?
well, anyway..
the message was
'huhu sory lambat..........................pa polah tek?'
the dots are actually words that i cant recall.. but every word was like a plate of OV5's nasik ayam goreng into my mouth. huhuh.
then we started messaging again. bliss bliss bliss bliss blissssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but in my mind, at the same time, i was still wondering - what has gotten into me?
the way X messaged kinda insinuated that X was feeling the same way that I do. 'like', or 'more than just like'.. damn.. these words make me cringe.
(which was wrong, tho i hope not)
oh i forgot to tell ya, the day i got X's number was Thursday........or Friday????? but im kinda sure that i messaged with X during tutorial........... or not? errrr..... (*_*)
well, anyway, we continued messaging every night onwards, with my feeling towards X grew more.. well, more demanding of X..
f**k~ i definitely changed - for the.. worst.. or.. best... waaaaarrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ;(
we messaged and messaged, and i smiled and smiled, at the same time, wondered and wondered..
until last night(Saturday, afiq's birthday.. ohohoh, watched The New Police Story. was a good movie, enjoyed it)
i was messaging with X during afiq's bday party, but X was in late-replying-getting-on-my-nerves mode. huhhh
we still messaged until after the bday party, which 'ceased' at about 1 am.
yeap, messaged and messaged and messaged until i asked X,
"nangga muka gerek lok..." (means= can i see your special one's face?)
of which X replied
"nangga upa? em.. xleh ei.. erm.. tkejut lak" (means= see the face? em.. no.. erm... you'll be surprised)
there. from that messaged, i started to think that i was right about X.
of which then I replied
"i dont think I would be. just mms me."
haha~ at that moment, my mode of message was - korek(the secret) sampai ke lubang cacing, sort of...
then X replied
"Em.. aku padah ko 1 thing leh x"(means= can i tell you one thing?)
i dont know why, but this message kinda made me- happy... i dont know why! darn it
i replied
"sure. spit it"
juz to be replied with
"oh.. em.. xpajak la.. mayb next time jak.."(means= oh nvmind. myb nxt time)
wic then i replied, with high hopes
"just padah laa.. mybe its what i think about you. trust me, i wont be shocked"(means= juz tell me. myb its wat i think about u.)
then X replied
"its wat u hv thot? hoho.. wait2.. wt do u mean here"
i replied(im really working my a** off typing this)
well, lets just stop here aite..
lets skip until the part where X replied
"this is so shi*.. Cant believe tat im tellin u this.. Huhu"
.............
well, its for you to do the maths of what really happened =)
then suddenly i had the courage to do the same thing...
I... told X something ive never told anyone b4... a really dirty little secret of mine..
or shud i say?
confession?
damn.
the atmosphere at that time was ambivalent
joy, wondering, relieved, worried
haissssshhhhh
still, im stil wondering about wat's wit me
oh yea, after the conf.. X said wat i confd was kinda xpected.. ahah.. damn I gotta watch myself next time.. ;)
then we continued messaging, which was mainly about the confession..
I felt.. weird.
Just in case you guys made any stupid assumptions... im straight and i like the opposite sex.
orr... do i?
ahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahaha you make watever assumption you want, i dont care.. its not 100% correct.. you could be wrong or right, i dont know..
watever it is you assume, i respect it. ahah =)
only me and X know what Im blogging right now.
right X?
hahah
emm..
anyway lets get to today! (sunday)
i woke up dissapointed this morning - no messages(not only from X, but from HER as well..)
arghhh wat happened to you ixat?!!
hurrmm
so i went to take my bath, got ready for my sports science lecture, and walked my way there.
waited for X's messages. none.
arrived at the lecture hall.
took out my phone. none.
pseudo-listened to Mr. Badrul's lecture, and inserted pseudo-laughs in between.
checked my phone again. none.
the lecture ended. went to USM cafe. bought a nasik ayam(it wasnt good)
sat down at a table, took out my phone.
none.
walked my way to OV5.
took out my phone. none.
i was sinking more and more into utter dissapointment.
went into my room.
checked my phone for the last time. NONE.
i was.. worried? i wonder why..
then i went dissapointed-ly into slumberland.
then
a message tone woke me up
my heart was racing, every beat was like USM's nasik ayam goreng(which isnt good) into my mouth
and then checked my phone for the message's sender.
X.
i jumped from my bed to my room mate's and to my bed again, repeating this nonsensical 'activity' for quite a number of times.
well, not really.
come on... you didnt think that i would actually do that do ya?!
back to my guilt-filled story
so it was X..
again, I was happy+wondering
so we messaged and messaged thru the day
but this time, X's messages were not as long and, in a way, sorta 'bubbly', like before
i was worried AGAIN! damn it!
and finally X said that it was time to go. X needed a bath. ahah my sentence sounds stupid.
so we stopped messaging.
and I waited for X message to come.
waiting and waiting.
until now.
this very second.
i am still waiting.
kept on checking my phone.
waiting.
waiting.
time is torturing me with its 'seconds' hand.
i dont wanna feel this way.
i just dont.
i hate missing.
i hate it.
i cant concentrate on my studies.
i keep on thinking about X.
X, if only you knew how i feel for you.
i wanna tell you.
but i juz dont have the courage.
i dont wanna ruin our friendship.
i never liked ruining friendships.
not again.
what happened 3 years ago - i wont let it happen again.
but..
fuc* it I cant stand this feeling.
missing.
missing the one I........
I.....
l....
lo...
no i wont say that word. that is one word that turns my inside out.
but that is what i feel.
i really really hope
you feel the same way for me too~
damn
i just dont know what's happening to me
right now i have to choose.
between X or HER
HER..
the one soul that always makes me happy
with HER's gorgeous face, sweet smile, but never quite understand how i feel.
foolish games.
i want to tell HER, but
the closeness we have right now..
is making me afraid to tell HER what i feel.
X..
the one that had me head over heels
had me missing
severely missing
severely wanting
made me felt..
free..
more of myself..
the only one that knows my secret.
a secret that nobody, absolutely no one, knows,
except X.
but this thing..
this feeling I have for X
is...
well..
how should i put it?
umm..
.......................wrong ;(
but..
f**k it.
i just..
lo...
lov..
haishhhhhh
i dont wanna say that word
it's..
too pinky.. hahah
hurmm...
i...
i love them both.. (damn!)
equally..
sometimes i want to be with HER
but then i want X to know my feelings and..
feel the same way that i do..
still, do they both feel the same way that i do for them?
and now..
im still missing X.
waiting for X's message.
tortured.
its the start of study week tomorrow.
no lects for the whole week.
means i wont be able to see HER.
means.. i'll grew more fond of X. like i do rite now.
i think HER is already owned anyway.
hmm..
time will tell.
HER and X
i..
love you.
DAMN I JUST TYPED IT!!!
but..
nvmind..
as long as they know.
as long as
X know........ hurmm
so there you are.
my lovey-dubbey blog
me myself cant stand reading it. ahah
but i just needed to let it all out
to X..
eyh sory owh ku tulis semua tok
i needed to blog it out
iboh ko x mesej ku indah pastok
heheh ;)
besides,
ko memang dah jangka nak?
u knew rite?
ever since from friendster,
u already knew
well, sory i guess.
butwatever it is..
wat i feel for you..
is..
real...
to HER
emm..
i dont think i will have a chance with you
you're like.. the puteri of UTP.. ahah
everybody wants you
and to compare me with the other guys out there..
you'll pass me easily..
hehe no offense yaa...
u're still one of my bestfriends, tho..
=)
arghhh ingga ku baca blog tok
okay, thats it.
i'm finishing this off.
well, hope you enjoyed reading.
c ya then
ixat.
i was sinking more and more into the sea of boredom, so i decided to blog something off..
....................
come on! anything!
..................
..........
anything! petty, unsignificant, complaints, important, appraisal, ........ anything!
......
...
......
<--- this guys, will force us to type sometyhing that I(at least me) call 'filler'
"whaaaattt? filleer???!"
well, this filler thing is actually a term for "all those things that are not that important to be blogged out as a result of extreme boredom", or, in short, something unimportant that, well.. uhh.. fills.. (*_*)
and no, i aint typing no filler rite now. i purposely typed this no-filler blog to educate you guys about 'fillers', although i think im the only one who uses that term for blogging...
(x_x)
uhh....
the term 'filler' is actually widely used in the music recording industry. it pertains to the songs that are of lower qualities when compared to the songs that really shines in an album. for example, Bob releases an album that includes his hit single 'I Love To Eat'. However, the other songs in his alum aren't as hit-ish as I Love To Eat. Now guys, these songs are called filler.
:)
uhhh
well, that's it. 'FILLER'.
uhhh
.....
(*_*)
this Is a filler, too, i guess.
(*_*)
OV5 cafe anyone?
...
...
anyone?
...
...
aku belanje
...
..well, ummm...
...
...
situasi 1.
me: jom makan OV5!
chaffique: OV5? best ke?
situasi 2.
me: jom makan OV5!
joe: nak ov5 ke? v4 je la.. lagi best.
the fate of OV5.
isolated.
dipandang serong.
its just another case of 'judging a book by its cover'.
and this horrible truth made me wanna blog it off.
the fact that this cafe looks undeniably buruk is overshadowing the other fact that the dishes are deliciously out of the world.
and its not as costly as the other Vs, too!
yay! just what we need!
"hey wat about the menu?! macam bosan jerr...."
this statement...
strays millions of miles from 'the truth'..
belum tangga dah madah nya x nyaman...
so what do they sell there actually?
well, not much..
nasi goreng kampung, nasi goreng cina, nasi pattaya, nasi goreng ayam....
nasi ayam goreng?!!
ooooohhhh dont get me started on nasik ayam goreng (fried chix rice guys)
IT CHANGED MY LIFE!
i had to use this cliched phrase - just to describe how it is
seriously
nothing beats the sedap-ness of ov5's nasik ayam goreng
which btw, costs only rm3.50..
now let me further elaborate about this nasi ayam goreng
- the amount of the nasik (oh btw, nasik=rice) - never ive seen an establishment who gives much rice to their
- its yummy yummy oh gosh deliciously sumptuous-ly yummy yummy...........................
- its best eaten with sos cili
- best eaten at THE CAFE itself! the cafe's environment - total opposition to the nasik's colorful and full-of-life 'characteristic', makes the experience one that is worthwhile~ ;)
- best coupled with the CAFE's 'orange juice' ;) which costs a mere 50 cents
- there;s just too much to say bout this nasik ayam.. you've got to try it out urself.. forget about the cafe's punya persekitarn, yhis nasik ayam is not to be missed!
so, i hope that after posting this blog, miracles will happen, and OV5 will finally have more pelanggans comin...
no more "ov5? best ke?", "ov5? ye ke? v4 je la"
okay! guess that's it - OV5 cafe.
another filler is done!
c ya
blogger's not accepting yahoo accounts anymore..
well, no biggies.. my old blogspot didnt have much of a progression anyway
...
so this is it
my new blogspot
the one i'll perpetuate
guess i'll just copy my old blog's first post as an intro..
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1st things 1st.. i need to do this supposedly cliched xpression - YAY!!!
see... told ya its cliched, or at least i think so.. err
anyways.. kudos kudos to me.. finally ive started my own blogging. if u ask me, i would say thats quite an accomplishment. ahah
still, problems suck one's convenience away, putting on pressures.. blah blah.. - life.
HOW TO DESIGN MY BLOGSPOT?
currently its 'hearteningly' lame. seducing me with oh-so-calm colors? please, u know u're on the futile side. why bother??
fara.. i borrow ur perkataan owh.. CRAP
ahah
ummm..
i think thats about it. half an hour left to solat jumaat. hitchin joe's ride. joe's the best when it comes to his satria neo. :)
oh yea, thx 4 reading. hope sumone's reading. lelah ku molah.
keep urself pseudo-anticipating!! does that kata majmuk exist anyway? watever.
-ixat-
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there. my 'first' post.
so..... that's it.
c ya!